Platonic

Dear my Platonic.

Why I can't stop Thinking about you.

Why I can't stop Tex-ting with you.

Why I can't stop Tweeting with you.

And I can feel it something new will appear in my life. Is that normal? I'm falling in love with

you. Can I? We were just friend. It would be your answer. Can I love you? Stop nonsense. You

make it funny. And it would be your answer too. Really, I don't know why I'm doing this. Maybe

it's because I really have no one else to talk to about it. I guess resorting to random people isn't

really a good idea, but hey, it's worth a try.

I've been friends with her for about two month now. We've gotten to know each other really well,

and obviously we became best friends. We connected like most best friends do. In the beginning

I wasn't too attracted to her. I thought she was cute, but wasn't someone who I would go after.

Plus, I was coming off from a relationship, so rebounding wasn't really my thing. We started

talking on TWITTER about random things, getting to know each other. We finally got to texting

on the phone, and our first conversation lasted until late night. That was really the mark of us

becoming best friends. We started talking about relationships one night, and I mentioned about

her characteristic on Twitter like

She afraid of the dark.

I love the way she screamed when I switch off the light.

She wear watch on left-hand side.

And so on. Suddenly she mentioned about me then. The moment she talked about me, I was

like SMILE widely from ear to ear. That moment I started to fall in love with her. But I'm not

too good to have any relationship. And I dared not to have any affair or relationship with random

people. But for me? She's not like others. She different. But, I will a bit little awkward when we

talked about "Love part" and I tried to change for the new topic likes "Eh, tak ngantok ke?" It

didn't take her long to realize that I was interested in being more then friends. As time went on,

she'd talk about other guys and I would grow jealous and it kind of hurt. I didn't understand why

until it hit me that I did have feelings for her. I told her my feelings were way too strong to just

keep it at bay. People already thought we were dating when they saw us together. It was like

were unofficially dating, but just best friends. It was complicated. This whole thing has gotten in

the way of our friendship.

I know that if anything happened I'd always want us to be best friends. That's really

what's important to me, but every time I see her.. it's breathtaking. I should focus on just being

friends, but it hurts. I can't bring it up with her anymore because it would lead to an argument,

crying, and I'm already pushing her away because of it.

I still want to wait for her, I love her. I just don't know if she wants me to, if she even thinks of

me in that way anymore. I just expected she told me she was falling in love with me, but now I

don' know anymore. It's all just so confusing and I'm always thinking about it, about her. I don't

know what to do anymore..

Sorry *English aku macam tak beberapa betul, ada yang google translate